Alhamdulilah
I have to be thankful to Allah, because for the first time in a long while, I have had an extended period of feeling well. I have started to do the things I love doing again, ie playing football, albeit in a limited capacity.
The biggest battle, I feel, is within your own head and it is also the hardest. I have to admit, it was not easy not being able to run around, take part in energetic activities or utilise my previous strengths. However, I think my focus was too much on what I couldn’t do, rather than trying to make the best of what Allah has given me. Keeping all the fasts this year, after a couple of years illness, gave me a lot of belief. Since then I have made a conscious effort to try and maximise what I have.
I have had Tuberculosis twice, which has damaged and scarred my lungs irreparably, on top of that I have Pulmonary Aspergillosis, which I am told cannot be cured, the symptoms, however, can be managed. I was presented with another option, Lung Resection; basically slice out the portions of the lung that are damaged, however this comes with significant risks, the biggest being death or insufficient lung capacity for a decent quality of life. I did think about this long and hard, but ultimately, as my doctor put it, “sensibly chose not to”.
The picture shows what this fungus is like, my left lung is littered with them and sadly my right one is also affected. So, I’ve probably got about 50-60% lung capacity of what I used to have, so my plan now is to try maximise that as much as possible. This was the driving force behind my #fridaynightfooball idea and even though it has been hard, I’m hoping that after 3-4 weeks, if i can get 60% of the fitness I had 3 years ago, I will be more than happy.
I have also realised how important our health actually is… inshallah i have started eating healthy and i am now looking forward to get myself not to how i was but to a better standard… My problems are obviously different mine is a lifestyle problem which inshallah i will be able to fix…
Well done though sadif for the blog… brought a tear to my eye… (but i buzzed off the #fridaynightfootball thing
Too much
May Allah give you the best of health
Fnf is where it all starts